Happy 2 year anniversary to my

Baby
Clammy
Carrot
Potato
Monkey
Sweet
Love
Light

March 20, 2022
In what maybe many would call an "insane" move, I asked if Kevin would be interested in driving from Colorado to Portland with me and he said yes .. It's very exciting being around him, time seems to go by quickly and I'm usually wishing there was more of it. I feel drawn to him and I always want to be touching him, even if he's a foot away briefly checking his email or drinking water .. I just want a hand on his back or something, and I feel comfortable doing that. It was fun to go and eat with Kevin—we got a deep fried burger and a beet salad, and it was also fun to go to a noise show with him at Union Pool. I like doing things with him as much as I like doing nothing with him, because it's also somehow so fun to just lie down and talk. I like his weird brain a lot. He is so goofy?

June 27, 2022
For Kevin's birthday we drove to Cannon Beach, ate a late lunch, walked around, got some ice cream, got to the Terrimore motel and walked a bit on the beach there too before watching the Social Network (a DVD option in the motel's library—we also got Borat but didn't watch) and somewhere in there, Kevin read the note I wrote for him and then told me he loved me and I didn't have to say it back but of course I said it back because I think I've known for a while that I love him. We both talked about how funny it was to say because we had already felt so much deeper than anything we've experienced before so "love" didn't even feel that strong but maybe our definition of it is changing. It felt really sweet to say it though, and now we sometimes periodically say it—it hasn't fully become casual and part of our vocabulary yet, I think because we both want it to still retain its value.

July 20, 2022
I think Kevin will actually move in soon-ish? I'm excited for this to happen, I really like when I'm waking up with him in the morning, then going to work, then coming back to him... that's so nice. I like the way he thinks, I like the way he talks, I like his interests, his aesthetics, his general outlook on life and love, I like how I always feel naked near him, like he's trying to see me clearly and I feel vulnerable in return, and trust him and love him enough to do that ... I want to build a life with him and I want to live it with him. The other night I cried next to him silently as he was falling asleep and I was thinking I never want to be without him, even for a day, and how I wish we could experience death together, but a suicide pact isn't the same, that's just experiencing two different things in two different people, just next to each other, and synchronized. I understand Genesis P-Orridge.

I LOVE MY BABY!!!!

February 10. 2024

Happy 2 years to my love, my light

It seems like such a short amount of time and somehow inaccurate, because I feel entirely changed by being with you. I am a better version of myself around you, I am who I want to be, who I want to become, and any disagreement or tension reveals something I didn't know about myself in relation to other people. Thank you for doing this with me, thank you for making my life and me better, thank you for being so patient and kind. I love you separately from me, I saw who you were and got a glimpse of your life before you made a little space for me, but I love you also in relation to me, how you change for me, how we meld into each other to form what we are combined.

It's hard to believe there was a time before I knew you.

xoxo
Your Chicken
Bawk Bawk

I LOVE MY CLAMMY!!!!

MY SWEET POTATO!!!!

THE FIRST PHOTO I EVER TOOK OF YOU

CARROT <3

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